Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Eleven years already?

It is hard to believe 11 years ago today I became a mother. I remember being scared spitless. I remember crying in my hospital room (and I cried). I felt so alone, but I know I was excited and loved holding my new baby, but I had complete terror. I remember saying to myself, "now what?" I remember after my first night at home I couldn't believe how hard it was. I called my sister, Sandra, to ask "Is it normal for a baby to cry all night?" Of course, she told me "YES". After a while I was able to really bond with my baby and learned how to love her and take care of her. Now after 11 years I still don't have it figured out, but I feel good about what I have done. I can look back with no regrets, maybe a should've done something different, but I have no regrets. I definitely have a more pure love for all my children and grateful for chance I took to be a mother. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CLARISSA!!!

6 comments:

Small House said...

OKAY...I don't remember that conversation, I'm thinking I was probably helping you feel better, because as you now know....it's not normal for a brand new baby to cry all night. BUT...cute Clarissa is worht every wah-wah-wah in the wee hours of the morning.

TELL HER HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Sandra

Ann Marie said...

Sweet tribute! I can't believe how quickly our children grow up.

Sandra.. always with some good advice. Even though I don't know you personally..You both seem very wise!

QuiltedSimple said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARISSA!!!

Have a great day
Kris

Angie said...

She is a cutie! I cant believe you have one that old already:)

Cherie said...

I remember being so scared too. It is overwhelming to be a first time mother and then 11 years later you can't imagine it has been that long.
Happy Birthday to your sweet girl!

Jolene (and my sweet husband Kevin) said...

She is getting so big! Happy Birthday to Miss Clarissa. :)