Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Eleven years already?
It is hard to believe 11 years ago today I became a mother. I remember being scared spitless. I remember crying in my hospital room (and I cried). I felt so alone, but I know I was excited and loved holding my new baby, but I had complete terror. I remember saying to myself, "now what?" I remember after my first night at home I couldn't believe how hard it was. I called my sister, Sandra, to ask "Is it normal for a baby to cry all night?" Of course, she told me "YES". After a while I was able to really bond with my baby and learned how to love her and take care of her. Now after 11 years I still don't have it figured out, but I feel good about what I have done. I can look back with no regrets, maybe a should've done something different, but I have no regrets. I definitely have a more pure love for all my children and grateful for chance I took to be a mother. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CLARISSA!!!