Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Look around...

This past week I was sitting outside with my little boy. I happened to look up in the sky and right in front of my house were 3 hawks flying around. It was amazing. They were beautiful and pretty close to us. I ran to grab the camera. Never was able to get a picture of them together, but managed to get some pictures. I enjoyed watching these birds. I'm pretty sure they were hawks.
I am no bird expert. In my eyes I thought of this as a tender mercy. Life is good if we look around.
Have a great week!!!

Friday, September 18, 2009

All you need is...

Hello!! I really haven't had the desire to do blogging lately. These last few weeks have been good and emotional at the same time. I know I am not the only one with a husband laid off. But I just need to vent. It is hard!!! I know we have been so blessed. So many tender mercies in our life, but sometimes it is just hard to stay positive every single day. I have slipped a couple times and been sad. Sunday I knelt in my room and wept. I cried like a baby. It felt so good when I was finished.
I hadn't cried for such a long time. I have been holding things in for a long time.
So, tonight I have new emotions. My husband had had 4 interviews with a company and found out today that we didn't get the job. We both cried together.
It has been four months since my husband has been out of
work. I would like to share some of the lessons I have learned. Mostly, so I don't forget what I have learned.
  • It isn't how much money you have, it is the memories you create.
  • Knowing how others will feel. I now have empathy for others and I will know what I can do to serve them better.
  • Life is about improving and trials are here to give us the chance to improve.
  • The Lord does know my needs. It is true that he gives us those things we need through others.
  • It's not what I live in, it is what I do with it that counts. Make what I have beautiful, don't worry about having better things.
  • We can create memories without a lot of money.
  • It will be alright!!!
  • Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get. The great thing about chocolates is they are always sweet.
  • I do need love in my life. Having a love for my little family helps keep me going each day. Gives me something to get up for and work hard.
I could probably keep going and going and going and going. But it has to end sometime.
Well, thanks for letting me vent, share, whine, murmur whatever it is called. I am entitled to do it, right? LIFE IS GOOD, JUST HARD SOMETIMES!!!
Go here for an inspirational thought from one who knows best...COME WHAT MAY, AND LOVE IT.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Eleven years already?

It is hard to believe 11 years ago today I became a mother. I remember being scared spitless. I remember crying in my hospital room (and I cried). I felt so alone, but I know I was excited and loved holding my new baby, but I had complete terror. I remember saying to myself, "now what?" I remember after my first night at home I couldn't believe how hard it was. I called my sister, Sandra, to ask "Is it normal for a baby to cry all night?" Of course, she told me "YES". After a while I was able to really bond with my baby and learned how to love her and take care of her. Now after 11 years I still don't have it figured out, but I feel good about what I have done. I can look back with no regrets, maybe a should've done something different, but I have no regrets. I definitely have a more pure love for all my children and grateful for chance I took to be a mother. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CLARISSA!!!